Smoking or non?

So my dream last night was interesting- I was smoking a cigarette and was so happy about it. I looked in the pack and saw that there were about 7 or 8 missing and the next thing I though was- what the fuck?!?!? I knew that I had screwed up by smoking, but I didn't think I had smoked a bunch! So far as I knew, looking down at the half burned cigarette in my hand was the first time I knew about this odd occurrence. You see, I used to smoke, I quit about 8 months ago now. Wow, seems like a long time when I actually write it out. The strangest thing though was realizing what was going on in the dream, at first it was great, because I got to smoke! Then my happiness turned to anger and disgust as I thought about how long it would take me to get back to eight months straight with no butts! It's been hard, but I just deny myself when I get the urge. I try to think about either stuff, and the urge usually passes. But it still feels like I just quit yesterday, and I still want a cigarette just as bad.

Non please....